Thank you Lord Robert
I have lived the last 39 years of my life in the SCA being more than I really was . I have lived it trying to live up to someones else's Dream. I have tried to be bigger than life and better than I am. I have high standards and I often don't live up to them, but I know I have been trying. I sometimes believe that the reason I am here and others have left is because I have  always been striving. It is wonderful to see that magic moment happen. I think life is better when we live part of it for others. 
Willow  de Wisp