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<DIV><FONT size=2>My Lady,</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2>You have taken the first and the hardest step.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2>CONGRATULATIONS!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2>May you have long and lasting happiness.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2>Dair deHaya of house Dragonstar.</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial">----- Original Message ----- </DIV>
<DIV
style="BACKGROUND: #e4e4e4; FONT: 10pt arial; font-color: black"><B>From:</B>
<A href="mailto:Ldy_Simone@hotmail.com" title=Ldy_Simone@hotmail.com>Margaret
Risher</A> </DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>To:</B> <A href="mailto:elfsea@ansteorra.org"
title=elfsea@ansteorra.org>elfsea@ansteorra.org</A> </DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>Sent:</B> Monday, April 10, 2000 10:27
PM</DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>Subject:</B> ES - Need to make Amends</DIV>
<DIV><BR></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>Unto the Populace of the Barony of
Elfsea,</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>Hail Do I Lady Simone Ui'Dunlainge
send greetings.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I write this to you all not just
because it is the right thing to do, but also because I need to. For my
recovery depends on it. </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I owe you all the members of Elfsea
a living amends. As I have been progressing in strengthening my
foundation of recovery</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I have had to look hard at the last
few years, at were fear has kept me from from gettng to know many of you. or
even letting </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>many of you get to know me past a
superficial level. my fear of getting close to people and having to move. ( i
grew up in the service)</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>has kept me from getting to
involved with most of you even though I care deeply for many of you. the fear
of having to say good by be </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>it founded or not has kept me at
bay. For the first time in my life I am in a situation were moving out of the
area is not a fact set in </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>stone as it has been in the
past. and for me this is forign ground. I have lived my life not letting
others i care for get close to me. </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>or letting them know what's going
on with me. in doing so I have denied myself the opertunity for some
good frindships and </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>denied you all the chance to get to
know me. it is just now sinking in that i will be living here a long time. for
the first time</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2> I'll be setting down roots.
This is a learning experiance for me because I have never build long lasting
friendships. </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I've known people for long times as
associates. True freindship is something I am just now learning about.
</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>To be honest this scares me
senceless, and I need your help. I do not know how to build long lasting
friendships. </FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I do not know how to let others in
and not run away and hide afterwards. to the point that this letter and
</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>others my sponcer has told me I
need to write scare the wits out of me. There are many of you That i love and
cherish, that I keep</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>in my prayers that I have never
told out of fear. how near and dear they were.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I am going to do my best to make a
living amends to you all by learning to be a friend. by letting you all in the
best I can. If I'm</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>messing up tell me. give me
suggestions on how to be better. this is a learning process for me. one that i
must do and it terrifies me,</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>I love you all</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>Lady Simone
Ui'Dunlainghe</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#000000 face=Arial size=2>MKA Margaret
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